My first hope to date girl was from age 15-16 when I was studying at a boy school. But many associates told me if I spent time to meet/date girl, I would lose the HKCEE exams. The reason was that a boy had to spend time to a girl. This would be insufficient time to sudy unless your level was very high. Ok, I accepted. If I passed HKCEE, I could be earn more, my life would be more comfortable, my angel would be more comfortable.
When I first started working at the bank, my senior assoicates told me if I decided to stay there and wanted to become a more brilliant future. I had to spend more attention and effort to my work. Ok, I accepted. One of the reason was that nearly all of my associates were male, only 20% of my associates were women. Their age were much older than me.
I quited the bank for 3 reasons.
1 was it was the time to have a change.
1 was I wanted to study my English well but I couldn't have any progress of English improved over that 12-3 years.
The last reason was that I lost my communication of my girl friend. The second girl friend I met since I graduated from school. I hope she could be my girlfriend. but I knew I never came up with her background. I was growing at an asset of million dollors' family, but her parents were at least 20 times more than mine. I only have Secondary 6-7 level. But I knew her parent wanted her complete Master degree. There would be 2 different world. Ok I gave up. Of course it was my fault because in fact I did a unrecoverable mistake. My heart still feel guilty today.
Then I spent 3 years to study English without any work. Also I couldn't meet any girls.
Then I joined security field, all my associates were old guys, all were over 40.
I know if a boy want to date a girl, the first step is to meet the girl. But when will I meet my girl?
My answer from my relatives are that don't be dreaming? What is your age? You are not teenager, you are not young.
But actually I only want my girl is growing up with me together from young to old.
I know age 12-16 is strictly impossible. But I still couldn't accept the age over 20.
In fact I have a feeling I still be single when the time I die!