I know I have no income.
I know I have no money.
I know I have no job.
I know I was only a high school student.
I know I have to gain daily pocket money from my mother every day.
I know I am no use.
I know I am a rubbish.
I know both my father and grandfather were already died.
I know my mother become older and older.
I know I have to support my family.
I know I have to be matured. What the meaning of mature is based on income orienting purpose.
I know I had been a middle class supervisor in the past for 10 years.
I know if I hadn t hardworked and concentrated on that job, I never became a middle class supervisor.
I know after than I couldn t find a satisfactory job except working in security field.
I only know, I have to change. I have been changing for many years, many cases, many situations, many opportunities time to time. I also have already made many many effort for many many times.
But there was still no use. Nothing I could change.
I only know, if I had decided to work in security field when I was in junior school, I wouldn t further my studied in high school. Because there was no need to get such a high qualification. I would stopped studying after junior level. Is it easy to get a pass in high school? Especially me, a stupid boy, I had to pay much more hardworking than other classmates to have attained a pass in high school.
I know, my English is now much better than I was in high school twenty years ago.
I know I never succeeded.
I know I will never succeed.
I know I never happy.
I know I never trust pure love.
I know I never dare to find true love.
I know I have better died.
In fact, What I can do in now moment is improving my languages.
I know my English isn t well.
What else could I think of ? How to die? How to steal? How to fuck girl? or How to fuck me myself?
I know I ought to shout up my mouth and stop my hands right now.
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